Hopeless Romantic or Just hopeless?

Well I was looking through some of my old things and found something I hadn't read in a while. It always touches me and it is really something I look forward to having one day the sooner the better is always good too.

I wonder how I made it through a day.
How did I settle for a world in shades of grey?
When you grow in circles, all the seasons look the same.
And you don't know why, and I looked into your eyes where the road stretched out in front of me and I realized.

I've never lived before your love.
I've never felt before your touch.
I've never needed anyone to make me feel alive but then again I wasn't really living.
I've never lived before you love.
I wanted more then just an ordinary life.

All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky.
I stand before you and my heart is in your hands, and I don't know how I survived without your kiss.
Cause you've given me a reason to exist.
I've never lived before your love.
I've never felt before your touch.
I've never needed anyone to make me feel alive, but then again I wasn't really living.
I've never live before your love.

And I don't know why the sun decides to shine.
But you breathed your love into me just in time.
I've never lived before your love.
I've never felt before you touch.
I've never needed anyone to make me feel alive, but then again I wasn't really living.
I've never lived, I've never live before you love.

Now some people might call me a sap, or a wimp or just a plain sissy but what is wrong with wanting my this type of person in my life. It warms my heart just thinking about having that feeling in my heart. It is something I thought I once had but doesn't seem like I had this before because something like this just shouldn't end. I really would like to feel that kind of love again. It is weird it brings so much pain to be without it but I would strive for hours or weeks or months to fight for the way for the chance to have that again. Is it too much to ask for out of life to be happy with the one you love? I don't believe so. Love is the one thing that is always worth fighting for. Wars are started over love. Love perseveres when people give it the chance. It helps us maintain our purpose in spite of great difficulty. A song once said "Love can walk through fire without thinking.." and I believe that is true as well. I am willing to walk through fire if that is what it takes to get that kind of love. I will face any obstacle that is set before me to find and keep my love alive. I just hope the one that with whom I share that love with will do the same for me. I think that is the key to all relationships. Let me know what you think.

Marriage in God's Will: Permissive or Perfect?

I understand your trying to decide on whether our being together is permissive or perfect will. I already know the answer I think. It will be permissive. Any marriage is permissive. Marriage is an earthly desire that we choose for ourselves. That doesn't mean that God's doesn't have say in the matter. He may not even have a perfect match for us because the dynamics of any relationship would ultimately doom everyone to being everyone to only being able to full fill a permissive will. There won't be a perfect mate but God might have several good choices in mind for us. Any of these matches would be in God's perfect will. God mentions in the bible that a guideline for getting married is that you should marry another Christian. Although that isn't absolute law that must be followed. I know when I married Tiffany was the right choice. It very easy could have been a perfect match. I don't want to upset you but I was happily married to her. It was ultimately her choice to leave though and I was along for the ride. My future is pretty bleak that simply because I am not with a perfect match anymore that I can never get back into God's perfect will. I don't believe that God's perfect will is a rigid as that. It could have easily been that Tiffany was a permissive choice also. God's will bless your marriage even it is perfect or permissive. I do not regret my first marriage as God gave me 2 beautiful and wonderful children from it. I know that God's Blessing was in that marriage at one point or else I wouldn't have been blessed with them. I really can't believe that simply because I am divorced that I would be condemned to ever be in God's perfect will with someone else now.

I truly believe that God allows us to marry anyone that we desire and he would like us to follow the restriction of marrying another Christian but really more of advisement to the latter. Although I do believe that once two people are legally married then that will become God's will. He will place his blessing upon that marriage no matter what if we ask for it. I think he would even do that if a Christian would marry a non-Christian. God will place his stamp on it that no man should separate them and we can't take it upon ourselves to decide the it was not God's will. God's will is to get married and stay married. That is what will decide what is perfect or permissive. Perfection is after all a process to work towards. A marriage could start out as permissive but if both of us are in God's will then we will be able to work into God's perfect will and be stronger for it. If we get married and have GOD with us, he will guide us together how to stay in his will. It is us who will have to make God the center of our relationship and to keep us strong in our relationship. As long as we decide to work on our relationship, it will work out. Marriages are like engines. They only require a spark to get started but they will require maintenance you have to keep gas in it, you need to change the tires, check the oil, keep it from overheating among other things.