The Dance

Life is the most precious and cherished thing that everyone has. Some people say Life is an adventure, others believe it is a journey, or a trip to true enlightenment, some might even say it is a living hell. This world is full of so many incredible things and so many wonders and experiences that can be shared and learned from. Yet life is hard even when it is joyful. Life is a gift to be held onto and experience. Some people let the world bring them down and deprive them of their own decision to choose to live. Life can be extremely painful and hard to endure but for every single bad thing that happens there is another that come along and make you completely forget if not briefly of all the pain and despair that has been built up. There are so many things that can be experience and things that no one should miss out out. There are experiences that move and change people's very souls. Whether it is standing on the peak of Mount Everest and know that you are standing on the very highest tip of the world or you are scuba diving looking at millions of exotic sea creatures and how they interact with each other. Maybe it is studying history and you realize that for thousands of years people were working with simple technology using swords and knives to hunt and get food and look back and see that in the last 200 years and see we went from the knives to nuclear weapons, from riding horses to building ships that can travel to the moon and back. Why is it people can't seem to understand what an amazing achievement that is?

Life is an amazing thing to just learn about and there are those that actually wish to get rid of it. It doesn't make sense. As you might have noticed from the title. I believe Life is a dance. Yes just like the song that Garth Brooks sang. He sings about things like saying he could have have miss the pain of parts of his life but he would have to give up so much more in order to do that.

Life is all about the pain and the joy that you can experience because you can never truly value the joy until you have endured the pain and the hardships that have brought you to that point. Life is usually bittersweet. It has some very bitter and sour moments but when the sweet part comes along it is such an awesome and incredible feeling that you are completely overwhelmed with pleasure and gratefulness at the experience. I have felt the pain of losing someone I love very deeply. I would have done anything to avoid feeling that kind of torture and pain in my life because I feel like it is ruining my life sometimes but if I had missed that torture then I wouldn't have had my two very beautiful children who bring me more joy and pleasure then any pain I experience. I look forward to every single moment I have to spend with them and watching them grow and become more beautiful every day.

Life is a dance that is better left to chance. I could have missed the pain but I would have to missed the dance. I could have changed everything if I had known how everything would happen but I would be depriving myself of the true joy and happiness that would be to come. So I say to you never plan for the future and let each day be a new one. Search under every rock for new experiences. Try something you would never imagine you could do. Don't let life pass you by or waste it by feeling sorry for yourself. There are too many things in the world that can be pleasant and joyful to waste. Never regret your choices you make because no matter the consequences there will always be a silver lining that will be found and show you the true joy of life. Your life is your to be whatever you like but don't avoid the hard parts. Do not take the easy way. Experience all the good and bad that this life has for you because in the end it is all simply a dance. A dance that last a brief while and then is over and all that is left is faint memories of what it was like. Don't sit out of the dance because your scared or your worried you will look silly. Just dance for the joy of living. Life's a dance that you learn as you go and don't expect to be prepared for everything. Sink or swim you have to give it a whirl. There are times when you lead and others when you follow but never sit still. Good luck to everyone and have fun.

ANGER!

ANGER is an emotion and and extremely powerful one. Thousands of things can make us angry but usually it is small and it quickly fades. There are times when that anger is much more powerful and devastate. Times when it threatened to consume all that is good and right in one's soul. It tears down walls meant to stop it and masks to hide it. It takes on a life of it's own feeding off you soul and stealing your will power and strength. It attacks you viciously and directly and violently. It is unrelenting and painful, it makes you cringe and weep like a baby seeking to only deprive you of any happiness that you might wish to have. There is no weapon forged by man that can fight this destructive force that eats souls and joy. Anger is not really a weapon but a FLAME meant to completely purge and wipe away hate and evil that has invaded one's soul and create a new slate where you can rewrite the past and make a new future for yourself with out the blemish that had come close to destroying what you were and would be. There don't fight your anger. Let it work and burn threw your soul. Let it reforge you in a wave of super hot heat and cleanse your soul. Don't go crazy but let it burn threw completely. Allow it to seek out and purify any impurities that have been gathered. Anger only destroys the thing that is bring despair and sorrow to your life. Anger is the way you bring those things into check and take control of your life. Anger is how you decide to not let the world and people to march over and help you stand up and yell "I am back! So stand out of my way." It is the inspiration of those who have fought a battle and been freshly forged into a stronger and more powerful weapon to cut down all the ties that seek to bind you. This is ANGER so use it to control your life and not let the world control and destroy yours with despair and sorrow.

Faith

People believe you can accomplish anything with faith. There have been studies that show that prayer really can have a positive effect on things. Faith is something that gives those struggling the hope to endure those troubled times. It makes living life a little easier having a faith that things will be ok if you merely believe. Not all people believe in GOD but there are undeniable proof that great things can be done with faith. Whether is magic or a supreme being looking out for us it is something that can be found and used for good. Faith in something that doesnt exist isnt always easy. It is sometimes like a magic doing card tricks. You know that it is a trick that has a secret that we don't see and it is merely our minds making the illusion real. If it looks real to us though, doesnt that make the magic just as real. Remember even the best illusion is merely a trick that has been practiced to fool your mind. Maybe faith is similar in sense. It is an illusion in which your mind can make real. So always believe in yourself and you will always succeeded becuase you have done your own magic and made it so already.

Love Poem

Here is a love poem I found. Don't cringe yet I didn't write it. Just one that I found and decided to share but it explains how I sometimes feel for a special friend in my life.

You leaned over and you kissed me
I felt my knees go weak

You leaned over and you kissed me
I couldn't even speak

You leaned over and you kissed me
With a passion flowing free

You leaned over and you kissed me
Sparks flew that we could see

You leaned over and you kissed me
A touch so soft and tender

You leaned over and you kissed me
A kiss I would remember

You leaned over and you kissed me
I'm sure I kissed you back

You leaned over and you kissed me
With the fire no kiss should lack

You leaned over and you kissed me
You left me wanting more

You leaned over and you kissed me
My soul you did explore

You leaned over and you kissed me
My heart no longer full of pain

You leaned over and you kissed me
Darling, kiss me once again

- Keesha Kelley –

Music

Music is one of the oldest forms of art. Music has the power to convey powerful message and move the most troubled of souls. It can pass meaning over miles these days threw radio, internet, tapes, CD's, music videos, live performance's, and even on street corners. They so many different types of music is almost hard to keep up with them all. Every culture has it own style and sounds. Yet songs only last for minutes at a time the inspiration brought forth by music can last hours or years. Music can make the hardest of people break down and cry or make the weakest of them feel powerful enough to accomplish anything. It is merely an inspiration's or does music have some sort of mystical power that actually is able to cut into the human soul and touch it so effectively that it leaves it changed forever? Is merely by singing the words that brings on the magic or is it made threw when the artist pours his very own soul into the mix? Whatever it is. It is powerful and effective. There are some songs that move me so much I feel compelled to join in over and over and they never become old to me. I hope you give some thought into this and for fun I will share one of my favorite songs.

It is called Back at one by Brian McKnight. It is a love song and always makes me think of the special person in my life at the time. Maybe I will have the chance to sing on the phone to someone who has been very special to me recently. This song reminds me of what it feels like to truly be in love as does she.

I ask anyone who reads this to post your favorite song and tell us a little about it and how it inspires you.

Virtual

The internet is a place full of information and an answer to almost anything can be found there. People go online to do research, chat, find love, play games, look for porn, get music, etc. But the biggest thing about the internet is the anonymity. Anyone can become whatever they want. They can change from old lonely people into young handsome men and search of women. Plain ordinary ladies can change into stunning super models that are the envy of all men. People can reveal only what they want to share and become something they are not. It is amazing how different one person can seem from who they attempt to appear to be. It is sometimes extremely difficult to tell if anyone is for real or if nobody is who they appear. It is an interesting question.

Can you really make someone believe you are something your not? I mean logically you cant change who you are so completely and just turn it off and on like a switch. You can probably pretend but aren't most people smart enough to see when someone is being genuine and when someone else is merely acting. Even in a movie we know the actors aren't really who they appear to be. Yes the performances are very brilliant and compelling sometimes but you still know that those people aren't truly the person they pretend to be. There is always an aura or presence that a person reveals no matter what they say that gives hints into a persons true nature. Maybe some people just aren't as attuned to notice or they simply disregard it as foolishness. I think it is more like instinct warning us about who they are. I believe humans are bad at forgetting to listen to instincts more often. We believe ourselves civilized and superior creatures and forgetting that we still know very little about the true nature of the universe we live in. We are just beginning to understand how things on the planet work and no where near being able to solve huge problems threatening to destroy everything. People are becoming very good at living virtual lives. Lives that aren't really who they truly are but who they want to appear to be. I think it is time we start getting back and listening to those feelings and built in ability to tell from right and wrong to start guiding people as a whole and stop playing make believe with who they really are. Honesty is always the greatest key to success in my opinion.

Strange feelings.

Do you ever get the feeling where you feel like you are flying and nothing in the world could bring you down?

Well I used to be like that a lot but all that came crashing down about 2 years ago when my wife, the love of my life, my first GF, first kiss, first lover, first date, left me for 55 year old man after 2 years of marriage. We had things hard but we were making do with what we had. I still find myself thinking back to what I did that was so horrible, so terrible to cause her to leave. There were times I had convinced myself that I was the problem and it was all my fault. I was completely and utterly shaken. My life was kicked to the ground, dragged across hot coals, shoved threw a meat grinder, then tossed into scorching flames, only to be devoured and expunged as useless waste. It is hard getting over a relationship even harder when you truly love that person and you know deep down you did nothing to deserve what happened.

I seemed to have lost all ambition and the will to get up in the morning even though it has been two long years. I don't cry myself to sleep as I did for weeks and months on end after it first happened but I am still tortured and tormented by ghosts in the night stealing what happiness that I gain during the day. I wish I know how to fix myself but I don't know how but they say it takes time. How much time? Will I waste away before I can pull myself together?

That pain is probably what lead me back to chat rooms and mostly on yahoo. I found one called Christian Chat 20 looking for someone with strong faith and a group to pray for me and save what I was losing then. Needless to say it still hasn't been saved but I did meet friends that made it easier to cope. I didn't keep going back to CC20 for long though as months and days went by, I got angry, very very angry at GOD for allowing my life, my family to be destroyed. What kind of cruel jokes was this? I still feel that anger for GOD sometimes. I feel abandon and hurt that he didn't help. I know that he hears and listens and I am not really angry at him but at my inability to not understand his plan. I begin searching other chat rooms. I went to one called East Texas which was closer to home. Hoping to find someone to sooth my pain but alas I found none. Eventually a friend that I meet from that CC20 chat room got me back into coming. Things were a little different this time.

Either time has started to heal or different more caring people had arrived. One person in particular has been helping bring a smile to my face more often. I find myself looking forward to talking to her and seeing what she has to say but deep down I am scared from past experiences. Scared to get involved, scared to go to fast, scared to tell her how good it feels to talk to her and open up to her. So I keep waiting and waiting worried that I wont be able to be what I would truly want to be. Afraid it is too late to be more than we could be. Worried that I will again have my life destroyed by love. Love is said to be a many splendor thing. I want that splendor cherished feeling but scared to risk too much of myself to get it. I have no answers, only questions. Questions that come and keep me up. That nag on my brain for hours on end. That bring worry to keep me depressed. I want to feel love again but will I ever find it.

First Post.

My name is Robby and this is my blog.

I hope it helps you know me and not think I am a dog.

A poem to be this may be, a poet I am is not what i see.

A creative process is a difficult thing, Oh dear. I am now perspiring.

A Lady of Fire is the one with fault, for inspiring this blog to be wrought.

The torture of this is almost done, I hope it has not forced you to run.

The conclusion is soon to come, because I dont wonder that Earth is not where I hail from.

Dedicated to LucyLadyFireDance for making me a blogger.

OK OK. STOP LAUGHING. The poem is over. Sheesh you dont have to rub it in how bad it was.
Anyways this is my blog and hope it brings you some entertainment or at least makes you laugh at my delusions and fantasies knocking around in my head but dont steal any of my ideas or I will sue ya. This ideas are my own and I dont care for someone making money over my lost brain cells. I look forward to seeing if anyone will actually read this and hearing what yall think. Have a great day everyone.